Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Hard, blah, uninspiring

Lucy sent me a text message this morning that read something along the lines of “you were quiet yesterday. Everything okay?”

I was quiet yesterday while hanging out with Lucy and Lacey after work.

Not intentionally. I just didn’t feel like myself. I feel bad that I was so off – I thought that maybe only I noticed – because I was happy to see Lacey and it was great that we all had a chance to hang out.

It was just the allergies and the antihistamine that I had taken. That’s what I blamed it on when I responded to Lucy. And that’s what it mostly was.

Although, if I’m being completely honest, I’ve been feeling a little off for a little longer than I’ve been riding the Allergy Express. Not bad, just not good.

I don’t particularly like it.

I don’t think it is stress. I don’t think it is sadness. I don’t think I’m getting legitimately sick. I just feel a little off balance. Not quite like myself. Like I am stuck in quicksand. Like everything takes so much effort.

It’s been like this for a few weeks. Everything feeling hard and blah and uninspiring.

I thought I was hiding it well. I didn’t know that it could be seen in addition to being felt. That's too bad. It's one thing to feel like you have a rain cloud hanging over you. It's quite another thing when others can see it, too.

1 comments:

Teagan B. Sawyer said...

Hugs to you. Sucks to feel off.

 
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