Tuesday, October 14, 2008


Colleen brought a boy to my birthday party. A boy she met the weekend before. And he went all hog-crazy and brought her to dinner before my party. Took her to brunch after. All sorts of mush.

And then there's Ashley, who will be going out with her South Carolina boy tonight.

Lucy has her cute little marriage.

Heather is pushing her boyfriend for a proposal.

And I'm sitting on the bench.

If love were a sport I would, unquestionably, be riding the pine. Never breaking a sweat. Cheering on my teammates loudly. Softly wondering if I'd ever get playing time.

I don't even have any prospects.

I hate that I don't have any prospects. It was okay 6 months ago, when I was still wallowing in the aftermath of Colin. It isn't okay now. Because my head keeps going back to The Athlete. And seriously? If I keep pining over him, I'll be institutionalized before he returns home. ...in April. And I'll be recommitted when he brings his gorgeous European girlfriend home with him.

And things with Darren just aren't going to work out. I don't want to force it.

What I want is for a damn boy to show a little bit of interest. A very little. Barely enough to make me notice. That would be fine.

This is not a good time for me to start dating anyone.

But the slightest possibility wouldn't hurt.


Anonymous said...

I keep saying the same thing. All of my people are in relationships, and all I really want is for someone to show a little interest. I want to know it's still possible to be found attractive or appealing or interesting. But no, nothing! At all!

So frustrating.

Stace said...

i've been mia for awhile but got on and had to catch up. I completely feel the same way, no prospects, but really not a good time for me either. oh well i say things will happen for me when they should as they will for you too.

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