Thursday, July 24, 2008

It doesn't feel like 7 months

It just occurred to me, while I was downstairs folding laundry, that Colin has never been to this house.

He doesn't know that I have a new cellphone.
Or a tattoo.
That Meg is done with school.
How long my hair has gotten.

He was with me during my first semester of graduate school. I have just finished my third.

I haven't had any contact with him since the very end of May.

And then it occurred to me that Colin had never been to my old apartment, either. ...the one I lived in for two years in which we were always on and off.

And then it occurred to me that I'm probably better off.

Selfish fucking asshole.

2 comments:

Lauren said...

And this is what we call stage two: anger... :)

Glad to see you navigating the healing process. Pretty soon it won't hurt anymore.

Stace said...

you are totally way better off. allow him to miss you, he's not worth the trouble.

 
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