Monday, April 28, 2008

This morning, my brain is full

Leave it to a nurse
My mom gets sick very rarely. Yesterday, she woke up with acute pain in her abdomen. She got out of bed, had some coffee, read the paper and went back to bed. She got up at 4 pm – and only because we had reservations for dinner to celebrate my sister’s graduation.

She had a bad night. She doesn’t feel good today. She is supposed to leave for California tomorrow. So she isn’t going to see a doctor. Because “it will not be quick” and “they are going to have to do a lot of tests.” So she is either going to decide she feels well enough to go to California. Or she is not going to go to California and see a doctor tomorrow.

This is what she says at dinner yesterday: “I hope it isn’t a tumor. That would really be a bitch.”

I am obviously freaking out. A lot. That is just how I work – assuming the absolute worst and thinking about how awful it will be until I make myself physically ill. I don’t know if I could handle my mom being really sick. I don’t know if I have it in me.

I might never be hungry again
We went to Morton’s The Steakhouse last night for dinner. I am still full.

Baked seafood appetizer. Morton’s Salad and Filet Oskar. Hot Upside-Down Apple Pie.

Purr.

Have I mentioned that my sister graduated from college?


Have I mentioned that Blue has been symptom-free since her seizure last Friday?


Have I mentioned that I ended up with an A- in that one class that I really really hated and was really really afraid of?

Yeah. And I’m pissed that I didn’t get an A. Because I ruined my 4.0. I really liked having a 4.0. The 3.89 is okay, I suppose. I enjoyed having something perfect in my life. Oh well. It was nice while it lasted.

I probably should’ve read this three years ago
He’s Just Not That Into You is a really good book full of really good advice that I really need to take. I won’t, I’m sure, because it seems that I enjoy feeling miserable and worthless – but it is very comforting to know that I have all of those excellent suggestions and tough love, all together in one handy bound volume of goodness.

2 comments:

Stace said...

Well I realize a tumor is never a good thing, but assuming it's in her stomach should be fairly easy to handle, i'm assuming and you know what they say about ppl that do that.

So glad your sister graduated, that's a big freakin' step.

Glad about your dog too, animals are so hard to lose.

I think I might have to get that book and add it to my collection of books I need to read. :)

Oh and that 4.0 WOW your amazing I'd deal with the 3.89 too if I were you. Good job either way though.

my life is brilliant said...

I hope your mom is feeling better. Keep us updated.

Glad to hear Blue is doing well now.

The picture of you and your sister is so cute!

 
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