Thursday, January 31, 2008

Writing about Colin, then not writing about Colin

It has been a painful journey to get here, but it is nice to be at the point where I don’t wake up in the morning and, first, check my phone for text messages from Colin and, second, calculate how many days that it has been since I last heard from him.

I don’t have the closure that I need, but I’m finally moving on. It is a relief to give up that hope. But, at the same time, I have this nagging doubt in my ability to refuse him. If Colin came back with a grand gesture and an apology, if he stepped it up and made an effort, I’d fall right back into it.

But I will cross that bridge if I come to it.

And I don’t want to obsess. How ‘bout we chat about other things?

I really need to break out my camera and post a few crappy pictures of my new living arrangements. While I don’t have even half of my belongings cleared out of my bedroom at home, the new apartment is starting to feel like home.

We had a $340 gas bill this month. Anna kept the heat blasting for the month that I was not living there and, quite honestly, it never occurred to me to turn the heat down once I moved in. Even though it is an old house with rattling windows that obviously cannot keep the heat in. So we sort of deserved that gas bill. It will be interesting (and hopefully not too terrifying) to see what the bill will be next month.

I have a short paper due for my class on Saturday. Very short. Like, five paragraph short. Who limits papers to five paragraphs? In case ya’ll haven’t noticed, I’m a very prolific writer. This concise shit can bite my ass. After work, I am heading to the nicest and most beautiful public library around, which conveniently has a Chipotle just across the street. I’ll grab a quick dinner and then I will start and, ultimately, finish that damn assignment so that I don’t have it hanging over me all day on Friday.

Lucy, Colleen and I have tickets to see Matt Nathanson (with special guest Ingrid Michaelson!) next week. Pretty excited about that. Significantly less excited about the recent realization that I have an exam the next day. Oops.

Here’s something else I’m not excited about: the weather forecast. It is supposed to start late tonight, continue through the day tomorrow. With a total snowfall accumulation of 6 to 10 inches. I’m pretty excited about the prospect of spending 20 hours shoveling my driveway.

I took a 6:30 am yoga class today.

I feel like I am pretty good at my new job.

And that is the end of today’s story.


s said...

I'm not a regular commenter, but I LOVE Matt Nathanson.Hope you have a great time you deserve it.

Stace said...

I love how you move on. I'm envious!
Snow? What's that? :) jk good luck with that shovel, think of it as a work out.

Plantation said...

So....howz life treating you?
Wow, Matt Nathanson...very cool!

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