Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Appropriately gloomy

Yesterday was a little sad.

I was bummed out about Colin and me.

And then I had to call my boss and tell her that I was leaving our building to take the mini promotion. Not that I’m heartbroken to leave her (hell no!) but, when she put me on the phone with my two closest coworkers so that I could officially break the news to them? Well, that was hard. They were both supportive. Blandly supportive. Supportive but kind of not.

Like they probably didn’t really want me to go.

I understand that.

But I thought they would fake it a little better so that I wouldn’t feel so bad about essentially abandoning them at the busiest time of the year.

It was a bummer.

And the weather was crappy and rainy and I was premenstrual and I had to drive an hour to go to class and I swear the radio was playing nothing but sad songs. To keep myself from marinating in the blues, I made phone calls. To Meg. To Lucy. To My Grandma the Troll. And nobody answered.

So I wallowed in it until I went to class, and then my sadness was replaced by disinterest.

And the realization that I will spend the rest of this week off of work doing my final project – a 100-question research whopper.

It didn’t exactly brighten my day.

But it got my mind off of the Colin conundrum.


Anonymous said...

Aww, chin up!
You'll work things out with yourself and with Colin. As for your co-workers, don't feel bad. They aren't upset with you, just probably sad to see you go.

Stace said...

Co-workers never say the right thing.
Ok maybe you should end this with Colin now, unless you want them to work. I don't see why you would continue something if your not happy in it. ???? confused?????? <-- that's me.

OC said...

I'm sorry I just was getting caught up. Where you are with Colin sucks (you know this, you're there). Have you talked with him since you've gotten back? Does it seem like things are different? Or is it like nothing ever happened?

I think you need to figure out what you want, what you're looking for, and then have a talk with him. Not necessarily end it, but at least get it out there. If in talking, you realize it doesn't work, at least it's civil. If you both want to keep trying, go for it. Only you know what's best for you.

Good luck. I'm rooting for you.

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