Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Here’s to second, third and fourteenth – chances.

In addition to being a fantastic night out with The Girls, Saturday was an equally thrilling and memorable evening with Colin.

He joined The Girls at the bar after having dinner with his boss. He was laidback and good-natured, silly and fun. When The Girls get together, we act like complete and utter fools; he went along with our idiocy without question. I admire his willingness; I couldn’t have done it myself.

We left the bar, dropped off my drunken friends, and had The Talk.

The Talk We Should’ve Had A Long Time Ago.

About us, of course, and why we do this not dating foolishness.

When you’re not dating, you look and behave like a dating couple. And everyone thinks you’re dating, but you’re not. If someone calls the man you’re not dating your boyfriend, you correct him. And if you don’t want to take the guy you’re not dating to a wedding, then you don’t. Because you’re not dating.

Historically, Colin and I have been better at not dating than we’ve been at dating. We attempted dating several other times. It hasn’t worked. For a lot of reasons. But mostly because of Colin. (I’m allowed to say that because he would admit it. Has admitted it. Fairly recently, in fact.)

We sat in his driveway and we hashed things out. I was more honest than I knew I was capable. He was sweeter and more apologetic than I would’ve imagined.

We’re giving it another go.

Dating. Like real grownups.

This time around we’re going to act like real grownups, too.

Colin and I, as you all know, haven’t had an easy time. He hurts my feelings. I blow him off. We have rocky months. I get crazy busy. He hits The Bumps. I get a little hysterical and he (rightfully) scurries for cover.

And we always end up back together.

There must be a reason for this.

There is a reason that Colin and I have been not dating since February 2005.

There is a reason why we cannot irreparably break what we have, despite valiant attempts at sabotage.

There must be a reason for this.

And I don’t think that it's only because we’re both too stupid to know any better.


Kate said...

OMFG! THE talk? THE THE talk?
I am stunned and proud of your bravery. I read this post three times, mouth open!

Good for you, Aly. Do you feel better? What are you going to do on your end to make "this time" better?


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