Friday, July 20, 2007

Hitting the books

It may be time to give up on the job search and head back to school.

My goal to apply for 20 jobs before the end of July? A bit of a pipedream. Or a very mean joke played on me by the employment gods. I don’t even want to talk about it. Searching for jobs is so laborious and so unfruitful; I am so frustrated.

Recent realization: if I had started grad school when I started looking for a job, I would be finished by now.

I can’t spend another 18 months looking for the new job that I cannot seem to find. It’s too much of a gamble.

My options, I feel, have been reduced to this:
1. Keep looking for a new job. Get one, eventually. Two months? Two years? Cannot be sure. What can I be sure of? It won’t be easy. It is not guaranteed. And, if I do land a new job, I likely won’t make much (if any) more than I make now.
2. Go to school. Graduate, eventually. What can I be sure of? My ability to excel in the classroom. The likelihood of a better paying/higher status job when I graduate. Student loans. A feeling of accomplishment. Not having to work with only dumb jocks.

While I was tossing around the idea of law school a while ago, that isn't the route that I am going to take. It has a lot to do with my mother's staunch opposition to it (I think she's afraid that it would turn me into an asshole just like her two lawyer siblings), as well as reports of how miserable former classmates of mine have found law school. I'm not agonizing over the prospect of not being a lawyer, which leads me to believe that it cannot possibly be my life's calling.

There's the option of continuing to study of my college majors - English or communications - but I cannot shake the fear that I would be wasting my time and money. (I honestly don't know what I would do with either except for continue in craptastic jobs or teach, and obviously continuing in lackluster positions after having poured even more money into my education is undesirable and I really don't want to get my PhD.)

And that leaves me with library and information science.

Every person I have ever mentioned this to purrs about how library science is fitting and perfect and otherwise quintessentially me.

My first career aspiration was to be like Mrs. Nixon - the children's librarian at our local library.

In college, when I found myself with time to spare, I always wandered to the library. I told myself I was going to study; I tended to wander through the stacks, instead.

Library and information science seems to be it. I'll do more research before making a commitment, but this area of study (and the profession that follows) feels like the real deal.

I technically couldn't start this fall - applications were due months ago - but I'm hoping I can somehow squeeze in one class as a non-degree student. It would be really nice to get started soon.

I am fairly certain that I could keep working. Business hours here are flexible enough – and I am irreplaceable enough – that I can’t see why my boss (as stupid and stubborn as she is) couldn’t compromise so that I could do both. And the university that I'm looking at (my alma mater is the only other university in the state that has a program) has a lot of evening classes.

With all of the other things that I do, with as busy as I insist on keeping myself, adding graduate school may be absolutely insane.

Or just the challenge I need.

This is definitely something to think about.


Unknown said...

I have hired guns (A Career Coach and a Resume Writer) and I've been told by both that corporate America has never been this bad. People do NOT return phone calls, feel responsible for replying to voice mails, Fed Ex resumes. What is needed is a "network" of people within your field. It'd who you know. And there are thousands of us out here.I'm freelancing like crazy. But I just wanted you to know I relate!

A said...

Ugh. I'm so sorry that you relate. I don't wish this on anyone. It is not fun. And I hate seeing my friends and family suffering through the same mess that I am. Blah.

Plantation said...

I think, in addition to you looking, have people (mainly headhunters) look for you. They're the experts. They're free. Use them.

And I can for sure, relate. I'd not have a book if it weren't the case.

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