Wednesday, May 09, 2007

I was not given ample notice

Today, my sister and I received invitations to a surprise party to honor our high school soccer coach's 10 years at the helm of the program.

It sounds like it will be a nice little affair, put on by a few parents who can't pull themselves away from kissing Coach's ass, despite their kids having graduated out of the program.

I'm a little excited. I've been looking for a reason to buy a new sun dress.

I am horrified, however, by the mere thought of being in a room with my old teammates. I was - academically and athletically - the golden child on that team. I feel like I don't have a hell of a lot to show for myself. There's that college degree, I guess. And I haven't gotten fat. But my job sucks and I don't like where I live and I will most certainly be going without an engagement ring.

My ten year high school reunion isn't for three more years; I thought I had more time to prepare!

I suppose that this will be a good exercise in self acceptance.

There's no way I'm not going.


Kate said...


Remember its all about presentation. THEY DON'T know that you hate your job or that you don't like where you live. Those that are married/engaged may totally dislike their spouses but they FRONT LIKE THEY LOVE THEM and that EVERYTHING'S PERFECT. Thank your lucky stars that you aren't trapped like that. I have been on both sides of the engagement ring and let me tell you, shit still stinks on both sides, okay?

You're going to be fine and anyone who doesn't like you has a problem. You were the best on the team. No matter what no one can take that away from you. Not that you would flaunt it, I'm just saying.


Amy said...

Hating your job and where you live doesn't make you unsuccessful. It means you are challenging yourself to more.

You are INCREDIBLY successful. You are intelligent, talented, athletic...hang your hat on all that you are on the inside, not on some accolades you'd like hung on your wall.

And being engaged doesn't make you "somebody". It makes you...well...engaged. LOL

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