Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Boys and iPods and gifting, oh my!

Okay. Deep breath.

Just got back from Best Buy. Purchased Colin's Christmas gift. An iPod Nano. Silver. 4 gig. Very nice. Practical. Visually appealing.

The kid loves gadgets. His brother bought him a GPS navigation system for his birthday and I swear I saw tears in his eyes when he used it for the first time. He treats his Blackberry like his first child. And I suspect that he kisses his high definition TV every morning.

Follow my logic here, folks. He loves gadgets = he'll love the Nano.

Or he will be afraid of the Nano. The Nano will holler "COMMITMENT!" from the tops of the mountains and the depths of the ocean. The Nano will conjure up images of weddings and babies and saggy boobs and college funds and other very scary grown-up types of things. And he will run away. And I will look stupid. And I will feel very sad.

Yeah, okay. So maybe I'm slightly terrified to give it to him.

Because, in my mind, the Nano says more than "I like you and I wanted to get you a Christmas present." It says "I reallyreallyreallyreally like you want I wanted to get you a Christmas present that would catch you pleasantly by surprise."

And that opens me up. It screams what I quietly feel. It exposes me to being hurt.

I'm afraid of being so vulnerable.

I'm afraid that, this time around, I've completely fallen for him.

I'm afraid that this - us - won't work out after two long years in the making.

I'm afraid that I'm going to lose him.

With that being said, I think I'll go and wrap this gift.

Risks reap rewards.

4 comments:

girl from florida said...

Don't worry A darling! I think the commitment we see as women is not evident in men. They see fun gadgets, we see a willingness to spend big bucks on a thoughtful gift. He will be impressed. That's my opinion, anyway.

Kristine Filegirl said...

YAY for taking risks! (Especially regarding Love). :)

Anonymous said...

you are definitely going to get laid!

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Plantation said...

Wow, that's quite a gift. I never had a girlfriend get me something like that. I hope he reciprocates.

 
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