Wednesday, October 25, 2006

I hope I'm wrong

I don’t have a good feeling about this job.

I’m preparing myself for a massive letdown. A letdown that will involve a lot of tears, incessant pouting, a whirlwind for applying to jobs that I don’t really want but at least aren’t here, and being forced to tell everyone (including my entire extended family, a lot of friends, Colin, and two coworkers) that I am a complete and utter failure.

So that should be fun.

I’m really looking forward to it.

There is no reason for me to feel so negative. They said that I wouldn’t hear until the end of this week or the beginning of next week. (And I’m am very sure that I won’t hear until next week so that my entire weekend feels uncertain and tense, by the way.)

My cousin Danielle emailed me and said “Think really positive thoughts about the job for the next few days....picture yourself doing it and the right thing will happen.”

Which is exactly what I’m not doing.

Primary (ridiculous) reason that I’m sure I haven’t gotten the job: they have, as far as I know, not contacted any of my references. And the H.R. girl said that they wouldn’t call me with news until after they’d checked references and made sure I graduated and all of that crap.

If to get a job offer is contingent on having a reference check, doesn’t no reference check = no job?

Seems logical to me.

But, thinking positively, maybe they’ve thrown that out the window because, in addition to the three references they requested, I submitted a couple of reference letters. Perhaps reference letters can stand in for a reference check. Perhaps not. I must continue to wait.

Positive thinking.

Reason I’m holding out a little bit of hope: they haven’t called me yet. If they ruled me out on Monday, how much bureaucratic bullshit should they possibly have to wade through before letting me know that I didn’t make the cut?

If only I knew.


Lisa said...

i've applied for jobs before and at the interview they've told me that they're gonna check references and i've gotten hired on the spot or called the next day. don't sweat it! i'm sure you did fine. =)

Amy said...

The waiting is the worst. I had a phone interview last Friday, with all positive signs (it's at my brother in law's company so he has some insider info) and yet I'm still panicking even though I'm not supposed to hear until next Thursday or so. Hang in there. Worrying does NOTHING except shorten your life. Go on, have fun, there's nothing that's going to change the outcome this weekend.

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