Sunday, September 10, 2006

Monday

Alarm clock
My parents stayed in my hotel room on Sunday night. Super-cool, I know.

Even super-cooler was the fact that my dad was up and bumbling around the hotel room at 7:30 on Monday morning.

I went to bed at 2:00 am.

Thanks, buddy.

Dad was paranoid about Labor Day traffic. Cars heading south, back to metro Detroit, on the last day of holiday weekends are legendary. In the best conditions, I-75 is virtually a parking lot. One major accident may add six hours to what should be a three-hour journey.

Mom and Dad left by 9:00 am.

I couldn’t go back to sleep. I was packed and on the road by 10:00 am.

Always the bridesmaid
I spent the entire drive home on the verge of tears.

I couldn’t quite figure it out. I wasn’t sad. Just reflective.

My mind kept jumping back to the day before, when I watched Lucy glow as she walked with Chet walk down the aisle. Her happiness was so tangible and beautiful that the mere memory brought tears to my eyes.

So did the thought that things between us would never be the same.

It was a selfish thought to entertain, but it kept creeping into my consciousness. Our friendship wouldn’t be the same. She would be the married one. I would be the eternally single one. She would want to do couples things. I would be the third wheel.

Silly.

Exhaustion.

Fear.

Emotion.

I laugh at myself now.

We survived her tour in AmeriCorps. We made it through her study abroad in Thailand.

Marriage? Just another one of Lucy’s adventures.

Our friendship will make it through this, too.

Pit stop
I couldn’t help it.

I stopped at the Coach Outlet again.

Maybe I needed a little pick-me-up. In the form of the cutest green leather iPod case EVER.

Never the bride
I was tears and sniffles in the car, but when I went to bed on Monday night, I sobbed.

My best friend gets married and I sob myself to sleep.

What Lucy and Chet have is beautiful. Beautiful enough to cry over.

I am tremendously happy for her.

And I’m terrified that I’ll never experience that for myself.

2 comments:

Unknown said...

You will, sweetheart. It's so amazing that you care SO much for your friend. She is so, so lucky. And one day, a man will be lucky enough to have you caring for him! (Why don't you move to FL so I can introduce you to my single brother? He's in law school...) :) xoxo

Lady said...

Wow - took me a while, but I managed to make it through the wedding posts! Sounds like it was such a lovely wedding!! And well done you for keeping it cool and together, I can only hope my bridesmaids will be an ounce of what you were for Lucy!

And seriously, I am totally sure your day will come! I really hope you find someone special soon :)

 
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