Thursday, August 04, 2005

No, Ropedncr, it’s nothing like that

I haven’t written about – or mentioned – Colin in weeks because it’s too complicated and I’m too clueless and it’s too juvenile and I won’t want to hear that I just need to move on, even if that really is what I need to do.

I want to know what he wants from us.
I want to meet his mom.
I want him to call me more and email me less.
I want him to know everything.
I want consistency.
I want clarity.
I want him to worry less.
I want my education to have no influence on his ambition.
I want more quiet nights.
I want a definition.
I want a title.
I want to be somewhere other than between.
I want to know and I don’t want to ask.
I want the moon.
And I want to know if he’s the one who can give it to me.

And, Jesus Christ, I want to stop sounding like a sappy Hallmark greeting card.

4 comments:

Plantation said...

I won't say 'move on.' But I will say, 'expand your horizons.'

A said...

:)

Fair enough.

ropedncr said...

i agree
with pt.
but how long
has this gone on?
don't push it fater than it goes.
and never,
ever, ever
be needy,
or (what the fuck ryhmes with 'needy?')
it will be over before you knows.

yuuuccckkkkkkkk!

best wishes for a happier tomorrow every day!

ropedncr said...

aarrrrgggghhhhhhhh!!!

let me edit that, please.

i agree
with pt.
but how long
has this gone on?
don't push it faster than it goes.
and never,
ever, ever
be needy,
or (please be heedy!)
it will be over before you knows.

there. now it's only badder, not worser.

ilybatsab

 
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